"How are you today?" he asks me....
"Just Enough" I answer.
"hey what's up?" asks another person...
"Just Enough" is my reply.
A strange answer?...not really...you just have to be on the same wavelength to get it.
For the past year I have been working two jobs feverishly at a pace of 70 to 75 hrs per week. My wife has been working nights as a nanny to six children to make ends meet and pay off our endless obligations. Sometimes it seems crazy and chaotic and at a breakneck pace that will never cease without days off or never an end in sight.....and then.....
A break
My job finds they made an error and owe me a week of vacation and I must take it now or lose it.........
then...break back...hot water heater hose breaks, shower drains stop up and Draino won't cut it...and the kid's toilet starts leaking.....
A break....The plumbing jobs are miraculously fixed for $2.98 and $5.98 respectively....
Then break back...school still fighting over giving my daughter the special help she needs
You see a lot of my life the break backs would stop me in my tracks and get me angry to the point of giving off the remnants of that rage like little shock waves..after shocks of the quake.
I still get mad but the paradigm is everything...the original breaks are mercy and they add up as well to more than I can count.
Sometimes it feels like we are wandering in the wilderness here and that's not farfetched. As a parallel look at the Israelites...they were in the wilderness for forty years...they would have a need..voice it vociferously...whine, complain, moan, grumble.......
Then God would give them a break...an outpouring of His mercy...time and time again....
Water
Bread
Meat
real needs in the moment...
What did God give them?
Just Enough !
The mana he provided was to be gathered each day and only enough for each day. What happened? Some people tried to outsmart God and gathered extra for the following day...just in case....
When they got up the next day the extra they had gathered was spoiled...Why?
The lesson they were to learn was they could trust God in His provision for them.
How do I feel today?
Just Enough....
I can get full of fear that I am not saving up for tomorrow or that I am not paying off everything today in this moment...Fear that my body is old and will break down without medical coverage....fear I am not providing sufficiently for my family or their future....fear I am not home in their lives enough.....
or
lose the fear---I can count the mercies that have been provided and blessings that I have been given today....I am choosing to be thankful.
It is hard to trust everyday...but it is an important lesson to learn....just enough
